past – diary_of_a

Hush! Don’t speak. Hold it, don’t cry. Don’t let them know. Keep it together, don’t show. Only the weak cries. Only the cowards seek assistance. Keep going. Keep grinding. “You’re just fine. Keep resisting. Ignore them. Those useless emotions, feelings and thoughts.” And just like that my sufferings dismissed as something made-up. So unreal, soContinue reading

Story time

I went to a psychiatrist one time for counseling…Now I know not all psychiatrists can counsel at best but I knew him already so I thought he’d be a better choice. I shared him my troubles with all the courage I could gather and he legit said- “well if this, this and this hurt you,Continue reading “Story time”

A day of self Reflection.

How are you feeling right now? I feel stupid for not appreciating people while I was still with them. Now as I’m looking back l see how badly & irrationally I acted & hurt some of the most important people in my life. And while they say they don’t mind because they understand why I behavedContinue reading “A day of self Reflection.”

When was the last time you celebrated your small wins?

Tell us about the last thing you got excited about. This might just sound so lame but hear me out. Growing up, I always wanted to ride a bicycle. Our parents couldn’t afford one and it was fine for all of us. Walking was what we always did, no matter the distance. And also IContinue reading “When was the last time you celebrated your small wins?”

Feelings lately

Have you ever been in this strange situation where you realise it was not the people you hated but your own reflection? That the bitterness you had in store was not for them?That the decisions you made were not forced upon?It was you all alongYour choices made you miserableYour lack of love made you unhappyNowContinue reading “Feelings lately”

Life is unfair

Not so long ago I used to dream To travel around the globe with only me To sing my heart out to the music that lit me up To do the scariest shits just so I could kill my fearsBut what has changed now?Why do I don’t dream anymore?Where is the shine on my faceContinue reading “Life is unfair”

Forgive and forget

Judging someone based on their past is utter foolishness Everything and every being changes with time..it’s the golden rule. Just forgive and move on.

Moments like this>>>>>>>>

Tonight my brother called meHe asked me about my health..How was I doing?How are my studies going? And why is that so special?Because in my entire 26 years of life he did this only twice. From not being able to stand each other in a room….to face timing each other with a big smile onContinue reading “Moments like this>>>>>>>>”

Let it go

Life is so much easier if we stop holding grudges over what people did to us, how they treated us,or made us feel a certain way. When we start to focus on the good things we possess that could make us feel so good.. the wisdom is actually enlightening. We are bundles of “possibilities” trappedContinue reading “Let it go”

A confession

Have you ever had such a moment in your life when you realise that the fault lies within you?Where you finally know that it was not the people or their actions that pissed you off.. But your own reflection! And that the only one ruining your life is you.Your choices made you miserable,Your decisions madeContinue reading “A confession”