diary_of_a_medstudent.

My pride: I could let go

What could you let go of, for the sake of harmony?

My ego and my pride I could let good of for the sake of harmony. I know for some it is hard and it’s not their fault its the society we live in and the functioning of the human body that they were made to only think about themselves in the long run but if I was given a hypothetical situation wherein I was given the power to choose harmony I would really give away my pride to maintain peace around because I know not everywhere “I” matter but sometimes “we” do too.

She knows

If a man is like him,
I don’t need a man.

If a husband is like him. I don’t need a husband

If a father is like him,
I don’t need a father.

If a brother is like him I don’t need a brother.

I feel so sorry for her
A man she can’t call her own
A man so egoistically formed
Why did he asked for her hand?
If love was just a game?

She could have find someone much better, she wish she knew.

But now she suffer in silence. In his presence more
Than his absence hurt.
She is an innocent soul for God sake spare her,
She was never yours to take, you better know that.
And though she knows she is happy alone,
the world shackle her with him says she has no choice.
It’s a shame on them who are they?
To decide for her and her own life?
But she , being so pure knows no better,
Than to sacrifice her life for the sake of,
her children she LOVE.

🎶

What is your favorite genre of music?

Pop and country music

Life these days

Waking up at 5 with sleep in my eye
Dragging myself to gym when I want bed.
Going to class at 9
And sleeping through most of it was never my thing
I would trade my life for good.
And though Finals are knocking on the door
And I have like 10 months or so I doubt…i doubt being a med student was this easy.
Financial crisis at home
To my troubles they are unknown
Expecting so much from me while I can only give half.
Struggling through most of it and the insecurities that last.
With all the feelings of being lost in the journey
And of being an outcast.
The guilt of not trying enough
When I know I can’t
If only I could go back in time and fix my life.
The decisions I made doesn’t seem right.

But

Isn’t this how we all really live?
To live one day in doubt and the next with confidence
And a little HOPE to go by every single day.

Music 🎶

On what subject(s) are you an authority?

I love music since I was a little girl ..can’t get enough of it ever.

Jar of gratitude

How do you express your gratitude?

Writing down the simple things I’m grateful for and putting it in a jar ..and at the end of the year opening each and reading them again is my way of expressing gratitude.

What if?

What are you most worried about for the future?

What if I’m not happy with what I did with my life when I’m in my death bed.

Isn’t life in itself a great teacher?

What makes a teacher great?

My life has been a great teacher to me lately, teaching me lessons the hard way most of the time it’s painful i realised but it’s still great because there are many out there who live far more worse..it’s not a perfect blend of good and the bad, sometimes the bad days last for months on but I’m living to see the good days waiting.

Life in itself is a great teacher.The perception towards life differ from person to person and every individual is well known to how their life has been teaching them.i personally think there can never be a better teacher to me than my own life.

The time when I cut my head with a ceiling fan.

Have you ever had surgery? What for?

Y’all be wondering how that’s even possible well anything can happen if you’re in india
So it was my summer vacation some 9 years ago and I went to visit my moi(mother’s sister)in Assam there they had their ceiling fan lying very low…low to the point where if you stand in the bed you might get hit by it ..so we all cousins were chilling and watching television when I had to get out of bed for some reason and I stood suddenly and bang!!! For a moment I had no clue as to what had happened I hardly felt any pain but after a minute what I saw scared me my whole hand was red with blood I had cut my head and I was bleeding heavily, blood was spilling all over my face to my luck it wasn’t paining so much or maybe it did but I was strong idk but look at the irony there were no hospitals nearby and the roads were blocked due to heavy rain so with my bleeding head I had to walk on foot for about 2km to reach a nearby pharmacy and thankfully the pharmacist knew how to stitch. He said I was perfectly fine even with all the bleeding.I got 6 stitches that day on the right side of my frontal head.
My moi,sister,mother all were crying for me and I was laughing saying it’s alright I’m fine idk I was not sad or in pain at that time I thought I’d gone crazy after hitting my head lol but now i think I was brave to not loose my calm.

Daily deeds?

What are your daily habits?

As a med student you gotta put your studies at top of everything,going to the library is my topmost routine,going to the gym is another ,skin care routine every night and maintaining a journal are few of my habits I try to practice everyday.